"someday you'll meet someone who isn't a douche."

i got myself into a bit of a mess. i'm sick, overworked, and just generally not feeling great. while it's awesome i'm getting money tonight, it's not awesome that i'm weathering the worst cold i've had in a few years! my work didn't let me off tonight without a doctor's note... no way to go to the boonies and i'm not waiting for 3 hours just to give in a note that says i have a cold.

my head feels ready to explode, then i have to do a lot of volunteer work then... back to work! with my cold! on a job i can't just quit because i just agreed to splitting an apartment with someone! i can't exactly drop the ball on the volunteer work either, or i don't get my smart serve. ;__;

i'm dubiously "dating" someone too. not sure how i feel about it in all honesty, don't know him too well. he was quite nice about the initial rejection, but on the other hand he was like "we can have some fun." and winked at me and drove off D: i am seriously in no rush to go back to any kind of ~ love ~ life and i don't even know what's going on.

i just really feel like crawling into a hole and dying like a hermit. D: why can't i just be sick with a cold alone tonight????