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Jan. 9th, 2014 12:35 amThis is my ranting journal, so let's rant.
I'm job-hunting like crazy, had an interview and a few more places sound positive about getting back to me. People are bullying me to return to Superstore despite my broken shoulder (I should specify this is the place where it got permanently injured) in name of the "rent" which I am adamantly against.
Maybe arrogance is a weak point of mine, but it seems as I get older... people are more condescending? I think everyone's just so eager to impart their personal nugget of wisdom of how to "do right" without really thinking it through. No I am NOT at the whim of your personal decisions! Nor am I the scapegoat of your opinions.
It's true. I fuck up a lot, get myself into bad positions, but I always make it out all right. Ironically it's only my mother who hasn't been insisting for me to return, because she knows how much pain it's put me in.
Every time I hear "As x years your elder, blah blah blah" or some other similar condescending bullshit, I immediately tune out. I am a firm believer in listening to your elders -- BUT I also believe a lot of them to be old fools. Do not tell me the recipe for success when you're dragging ass back into retail, chain smoke and drink heavily. I will not listen.
I have always found the most insightful, intelligent and wise people are the least condescending of all -- and for good reason, because people who use their fucking brains realize there's always a lot of different components of what makes someone up, what is fixable versus what is plain personality, everyone's had different experiences, and it's better to encourage with personal experience than to talk down with corny "and I didn't let x hold me back from doing what I want!!!!"
Picking on my lack of confidence? Picking on me for being "easily scared"? Oh bitch, you don't know the first thing about me.
And also... YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT IF YOU ONLY JUST MET SOMEONE A WEEK OR TWO AGO!
And the whole rent thing gets the same response. In just a week of everyone returning from the holidays, I've already done a pretty successful interview, talked to a few managers about work, applied to tons of places and despite my current unemployment am doing quite well for myself.
I think my roommate is riding my ass because he's worried about the rent, but it's still not his business to ride my ass IF I'VE BEEN JOBHUNTING. He's not my boss, or my mother or anyone like that. So piss off. My boyfriend likewise has been riding my ass about being jobless but is there any way to tell them to be fucking patient? That I've been jobless for under 3 weeks and I've made a ton of progress?
Anyway that's just what I think. I don't know why I'm so angry at everything today, might just be hormones or boredom or weird sleeping times.
I'm job-hunting like crazy, had an interview and a few more places sound positive about getting back to me. People are bullying me to return to Superstore despite my broken shoulder (I should specify this is the place where it got permanently injured) in name of the "rent" which I am adamantly against.
Maybe arrogance is a weak point of mine, but it seems as I get older... people are more condescending? I think everyone's just so eager to impart their personal nugget of wisdom of how to "do right" without really thinking it through. No I am NOT at the whim of your personal decisions! Nor am I the scapegoat of your opinions.
It's true. I fuck up a lot, get myself into bad positions, but I always make it out all right. Ironically it's only my mother who hasn't been insisting for me to return, because she knows how much pain it's put me in.
Every time I hear "As x years your elder, blah blah blah" or some other similar condescending bullshit, I immediately tune out. I am a firm believer in listening to your elders -- BUT I also believe a lot of them to be old fools. Do not tell me the recipe for success when you're dragging ass back into retail, chain smoke and drink heavily. I will not listen.
I have always found the most insightful, intelligent and wise people are the least condescending of all -- and for good reason, because people who use their fucking brains realize there's always a lot of different components of what makes someone up, what is fixable versus what is plain personality, everyone's had different experiences, and it's better to encourage with personal experience than to talk down with corny "and I didn't let x hold me back from doing what I want!!!!"
Picking on my lack of confidence? Picking on me for being "easily scared"? Oh bitch, you don't know the first thing about me.
And also... YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT IF YOU ONLY JUST MET SOMEONE A WEEK OR TWO AGO!
And the whole rent thing gets the same response. In just a week of everyone returning from the holidays, I've already done a pretty successful interview, talked to a few managers about work, applied to tons of places and despite my current unemployment am doing quite well for myself.
I think my roommate is riding my ass because he's worried about the rent, but it's still not his business to ride my ass IF I'VE BEEN JOBHUNTING. He's not my boss, or my mother or anyone like that. So piss off. My boyfriend likewise has been riding my ass about being jobless but is there any way to tell them to be fucking patient? That I've been jobless for under 3 weeks and I've made a ton of progress?
Anyway that's just what I think. I don't know why I'm so angry at everything today, might just be hormones or boredom or weird sleeping times.
