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Mar. 6th, 2014 11:45 pmI quit being social the past month in exchange for Bravely Default. Just about finished it now, just trying to pick up the last bits of gear and max out job classes. Right now I have Swordmaster/Pirate, Templar/White Mage, Thief/Salve-maker and Dark Knight/Freelancer (sometimes I make Tiz Ninja/Black Mage to compliment Edea's Swordmaster class for max countering effectiveness). Finally finished building Norende. Gonna be sad when I'm done and then it's on to another game.
I'm feeling really bummed out about work in general lately. I've been trying incredibly hard to do my best and I'm still under constant threat of being fired. Retail can be a really harsh environment. I started handing out resumes again in the mean time.
I accidentally skipped a shift today at my day job and that's been making me feel anxious and shitty all night. I called back, got my manager's phone number, and said I was really sorry, it won't happen again, I misread my schedule, etc. and it's a pretty shitty reason, but I refuse to justify myself because it shouldn't have happened. Not sure if he got my message, but I just feel like so much shit. Like what if I get fired over it? It really butchered my plans of asking for more shifts. Fuck my life, seriously.
As for my night shift, this is the only day I got off this week (which turned out to not be a free day, heh, downside of having two fucking jobs). My weekend is going to be fucking bananas since in less than 12 hours, I'll be back because of goddamn training.
Speaking of training, being told of standards and quotas would've been a hell of a thing, wouldn't it? For some reason, the jackass senior guy never did and just kept following me around and whining. He kept meddling in whatever I did, and lately it's been driving me bonkers. I had no idea why, until he whined to our jackass manager and he threatened to fire me.
The grocery manager has a serious case of Napoleon syndrome and seems desperate to, er, compensate. He seems to love threatening people their jobs and swearing up and down at people he doesn't like. He did that to me about how I was going "slow" and going "I don't think you're doing your quota, well Rebecca, there's a lot of people lined up who want your job and I can give them yours." The funny thing is that he took the senior's guy word so absolutely that he didn't know if I was doing anything else. Pretty fucking stupid.
Thinly veiled threats, huh? And reprimanding someone based on someone else's word? And getting pissy at someone with under a month's worth of experience instead of assisting help or seeing first if there's any improvement? You are one shitty grocery manager. No wonder four people walked or quit within a damn month.
I kept pretty far away from him for good reason, and now I've been distancing myself from the ~ senior ~ guy as well. I do not need to be constantly told what to do, contrary to what he seems to believe.
Speaking of him coddling me and then putting me into shit, as well as just flat-out meddling and slowing me down, it is actually unnerving how closely he monitors me. I warned him once I see him floating around, I'm observant and can see details. It's almost flat-out stalking at this point. I really cannot tell if it's because of some kind of ~ Oh I'm in charge I have to watch that delinquent Rebecca ~ or a creepy kind of "OOoooh a girl!! I hope she doesn't break herself in two carrying a box!!" sexist thing.
On break he constantly talks about prostitutes and strippers, and reads magazines in this super creepy fashion and I'm right there. I have no problem with boy talk, but sometimes it's gotten excessive, especially if other single gents join in, which is another reason I'm probably going to fly ASAP. It's been this awkward situation where they're talking about having sex with girls and going "I don't know why women do xxx" and talking about weird things girls do, and I am sitting RIGHT THERE.
A married guy who wasn't joining in actually turned to me and went "Hah, this is kind of awkward for you, isn't it?" and I was like "Yeah, just a bit!" I noticed the other elderly married dude has gotten up and walked away during those chats.
Anyway all things considered, I hope I'm not fired from both my jobs. I am really hoping I can drop my overnight shift some time soon, and get another day job that can accommodate itself around my baby shifts at my other work. :/
I'm really, really starting to feel sick and stressed constantly, complete with some hardcore weight loss (all my pants and shirts are too big for me now). Good work out and not bad money, but I don't want to work in a place where I get threatened constantly. I left Tim Horton's to work in a respectful environment, not to land back into a place ran by jackasses.
Superstore never threatened me, so I guess I shouldn't feel worried, but his voice was stern on my voice message. :( So I'm still getting myself sick... I guess I'm just inept all around and will never succeed in this field despite my best efforts. It's just not my area.
I'm feeling really bummed out about work in general lately. I've been trying incredibly hard to do my best and I'm still under constant threat of being fired. Retail can be a really harsh environment. I started handing out resumes again in the mean time.
I accidentally skipped a shift today at my day job and that's been making me feel anxious and shitty all night. I called back, got my manager's phone number, and said I was really sorry, it won't happen again, I misread my schedule, etc. and it's a pretty shitty reason, but I refuse to justify myself because it shouldn't have happened. Not sure if he got my message, but I just feel like so much shit. Like what if I get fired over it? It really butchered my plans of asking for more shifts. Fuck my life, seriously.
As for my night shift, this is the only day I got off this week (which turned out to not be a free day, heh, downside of having two fucking jobs). My weekend is going to be fucking bananas since in less than 12 hours, I'll be back because of goddamn training.
Speaking of training, being told of standards and quotas would've been a hell of a thing, wouldn't it? For some reason, the jackass senior guy never did and just kept following me around and whining. He kept meddling in whatever I did, and lately it's been driving me bonkers. I had no idea why, until he whined to our jackass manager and he threatened to fire me.
The grocery manager has a serious case of Napoleon syndrome and seems desperate to, er, compensate. He seems to love threatening people their jobs and swearing up and down at people he doesn't like. He did that to me about how I was going "slow" and going "I don't think you're doing your quota, well Rebecca, there's a lot of people lined up who want your job and I can give them yours." The funny thing is that he took the senior's guy word so absolutely that he didn't know if I was doing anything else. Pretty fucking stupid.
Thinly veiled threats, huh? And reprimanding someone based on someone else's word? And getting pissy at someone with under a month's worth of experience instead of assisting help or seeing first if there's any improvement? You are one shitty grocery manager. No wonder four people walked or quit within a damn month.
I kept pretty far away from him for good reason, and now I've been distancing myself from the ~ senior ~ guy as well. I do not need to be constantly told what to do, contrary to what he seems to believe.
Speaking of him coddling me and then putting me into shit, as well as just flat-out meddling and slowing me down, it is actually unnerving how closely he monitors me. I warned him once I see him floating around, I'm observant and can see details. It's almost flat-out stalking at this point. I really cannot tell if it's because of some kind of ~ Oh I'm in charge I have to watch that delinquent Rebecca ~ or a creepy kind of "OOoooh a girl!! I hope she doesn't break herself in two carrying a box!!" sexist thing.
On break he constantly talks about prostitutes and strippers, and reads magazines in this super creepy fashion and I'm right there. I have no problem with boy talk, but sometimes it's gotten excessive, especially if other single gents join in, which is another reason I'm probably going to fly ASAP. It's been this awkward situation where they're talking about having sex with girls and going "I don't know why women do xxx" and talking about weird things girls do, and I am sitting RIGHT THERE.
A married guy who wasn't joining in actually turned to me and went "Hah, this is kind of awkward for you, isn't it?" and I was like "Yeah, just a bit!" I noticed the other elderly married dude has gotten up and walked away during those chats.
Anyway all things considered, I hope I'm not fired from both my jobs. I am really hoping I can drop my overnight shift some time soon, and get another day job that can accommodate itself around my baby shifts at my other work. :/
I'm really, really starting to feel sick and stressed constantly, complete with some hardcore weight loss (all my pants and shirts are too big for me now). Good work out and not bad money, but I don't want to work in a place where I get threatened constantly. I left Tim Horton's to work in a respectful environment, not to land back into a place ran by jackasses.
Superstore never threatened me, so I guess I shouldn't feel worried, but his voice was stern on my voice message. :( So I'm still getting myself sick... I guess I'm just inept all around and will never succeed in this field despite my best efforts. It's just not my area.
