they say if you like someone past a certain amount of time, it passes from a simple crush and into love. even though he treated me like shit during our "relationship" and was better to keep as just a friend, i feel sad because i don't hate him or feel like cutting him out despite being such an asswipe. i've officially liked him in a romantic way for over a year. i don't think he knows that but he's made it clear he doesn't want to continue anything. the fucked up thing is that i don't even want to go back, but i still feel this way about him.
i started to even dream about him because it's tearing me up that badly. why do i have such foul luck with people that i fell in love with an asshole?
but what other choice do i have?
bah bum dum i'm not 15 moving on.
since i can't log into lj anymore i've decided to stop using it.
i've been really sick the past week with pneumonia, severe dizzy spells, congestion, migraines and god knows what else. i have to go through hoops to get all my tax papers together for H&R. have to go to the clinic too.
realizing finances are a little tight for me so japan and hong kong are gonna be thrifty. but i can't believe it's only a month away now woaaoowowowowwwww
would it be a bad idea to go through discount bins and sell them to overseas fans at super jacked up prices? so i can have more spending money hah.
my schedule is as follows:
first week: tokyo
second week: tokyo > nagoya > kyoto > osaka (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
nintendoh!!!) > hiroshima/BUNNY ISLAND > tokyo
third week: hong kong/yokohama
a bitchy co-worker left me a note in the open for everyone to see in a really bitchy manner about how much i forget to double bag even though i've never forgotten? so basically gonna have to nip that one in the bud when my manager comes back.
gonna look for new work too, since my coworkers are officially driving me insane and i'm tired of 8 1/2 hour shifts without breaks and still being talked to like i'm lazy.
i have a lot on my mind lately and i just wanted to put something down.
game of thrones season 3 starts again this month and i am pumped.
looking to move back out soon, stopped taking anti-depressants so i don't have to pay for a refill, etc.
bad life decisions are me!
school feels like a mistake but i should start looking to go back in the fall.
i started to even dream about him because it's tearing me up that badly. why do i have such foul luck with people that i fell in love with an asshole?
but what other choice do i have?
bah bum dum i'm not 15 moving on.
since i can't log into lj anymore i've decided to stop using it.
i've been really sick the past week with pneumonia, severe dizzy spells, congestion, migraines and god knows what else. i have to go through hoops to get all my tax papers together for H&R. have to go to the clinic too.
realizing finances are a little tight for me so japan and hong kong are gonna be thrifty. but i can't believe it's only a month away now woaaoowowowowwwww
would it be a bad idea to go through discount bins and sell them to overseas fans at super jacked up prices? so i can have more spending money hah.
my schedule is as follows:
first week: tokyo
second week: tokyo > nagoya > kyoto > osaka (
nintendoh!!!) > hiroshima/BUNNY ISLAND > tokyothird week: hong kong/yokohama
a bitchy co-worker left me a note in the open for everyone to see in a really bitchy manner about how much i forget to double bag even though i've never forgotten? so basically gonna have to nip that one in the bud when my manager comes back.
gonna look for new work too, since my coworkers are officially driving me insane and i'm tired of 8 1/2 hour shifts without breaks and still being talked to like i'm lazy.
i have a lot on my mind lately and i just wanted to put something down.
game of thrones season 3 starts again this month and i am pumped.
looking to move back out soon, stopped taking anti-depressants so i don't have to pay for a refill, etc.
bad life decisions are me!
school feels like a mistake but i should start looking to go back in the fall.
